I m taking a lot of courage to tell my mom everything... I wrote a letter to tell her everything and clear all her doubts... I want her to understand that I m not like what my uncle describes me... and she as my mom should know that better than anyone in the world... I am a bit taken aback that my mom chooses to believe on other people besides me... just because I went out with a guy without her knowing...  and he gets the blame cause my mom accuses me for not being focus.... hmmmm.... if I m not focused, will I be able to score..   she do not realize the amount of stress that she cause me when I am sitting for my exams... she also don't realize that no matter how stressed and disturbed I get after calling her, I still call her before my exams... she thinks that I do not love the family anymore... she do not know how much I miss seeing my family and every time I go back, I just get heart broken.. they condemn me and bad mouth me In front of me... they also ignore me and find me irritating... why should I rely on a family who do not bother about my feelings but want to know every shit I do... haaiiizzz